I've had a busy few months, what with the Kickstarter project getting its funding, the British Family Fayre, and then spontaneously visiting the International Jewellery London Show at Earls Court. Surrounded by people, discussing jewellery, hallmarking and my new venture, and please don't get me wrong, it's incredibly exciting, but I've never felt lonelier.
There comes a point when you've exhausted the patience of those close to you. I've just reached that point. How am I? I'm fine, because really I ache, have joint pain, my hip feels like its exploding, I have a sore throat, headache, have stiff muscles and no I didn't just run a marathon. I feel like its permanently the middle of the night because I'm so exhausted, but its okay, because I'm fine, I'm 'just' tired.
I had to write it somewhere, because I feel a little mad!
I'm loving the designs I'm coming up with, the mood boards and the decision to definitely be in the precious metal jewellery market. The purchase of metres of italian leather for bracelets and necklets, some especially for the male jewellery market. I can't wait to get back on my torch, but I've been sofa bound for the last week and I'm so frustrated. The only reason I wasn't bed bound is because the only bathroom in my house is downstairs and I couldn't keep going up and down the stairs. I pulled out the spare duvet and lay on the sofa. Thankfully I bought some sketch pads in Rymans so at least I could doodle.
The aching hit back in big time and its frustrating when your first and last thought of every day is 'I wish the pain would go away'. I fall asleep weaving glass round a mandrel in my head, it stops my mind focusing on the fact that when the sun rises I have to move beyond the aching muscles, hope the brain fog will leave me alone and pull myself together enough to sit up. Count my spoons, prioritise the day and then get up.
Once I'm in my workshop I'm fine, but getting there is painful. I know I over did it, I think it was worth it. Time will tell. I'll keep getting up.
Thank you for reading.
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